My Path

I've been wandering on my road and I feel as if I've lost my sense of direction. I've come to a dead
halt and I do not have my '93 mercury topaz to drive me out of there (a little lol moment).
Sure, I put on a good show but honestly, I haven't REALLY been looking for any guidance. Therefore, I'm just standing there. I don't want to walk any further. I'm not prepared for this. No one told me the Life road was going to be THIS hard. I mean sure, I've heard the occassional "stay young as long as you can," but seriously, couldn't you give me a little more detailed advice. "Come on, work with me here." But it's too late, I'm on my own. Sure, I've got my family and friends but they're walking down their road at the moment. Finally, I fall down on my knees and cry out for help. It is then that I hear a faint voice. It's God and he's calling out for me as well. Me...of all people!

I think Casting Crowns put it pretty well in their song, In Me, when they said "How refreshing to know You don't need me, how amazing to find that You want me" and also, "I'll never get by living on my own ability." It is all too true.

I cannot possibly get by in life living on my own ability. It's impossible. And don't say it's not because it most definitely is. But sometimes, we are just too proud to ask for help. We go through one struggle and we think "Oh, it's no biggie. I can do this by myself" and then we go through another struggle and we say the same thing. But then...everything starts to overflow. You're carrying a huge burden on your shoulders and you cannot lift it off alone. The burden pushes you to the ground and you finally call out for help. And God hears you. He actually hears you. Even though you have refused his presence for so long, he hears you and he wants you. He doesn't need you at all, but he wants you. And sometimes, all we want is to be wanted.

GOD WANTS ME. I've refused his presence for so long and yet he wants me. He doesn't need me, he wants me. Therefore, I'm here, typing this. And I'm trusting in the Lord to get me through every stepping stone in my life. I'm setting my sights on his word and I'm going to fall in love with Him.